perspective...

sometimes, life can really get at you.  issues arise, and you think to yourself, surely it can't get much worse than this.  i was definitely having one of those days yesterday.  i allowed for myself to get sucked into it.  the 'issue' consumed my every thought.  i threw a grand petty party and let anyone who would listen know about this terrible thing i was going through.  

then i curled up in my bed and began reading blogs and tweeting.  i started thinking of the blogs that i read that really touch my heart.  the blogs where the author pours over the keyboard letting us in on the terribles of their lives.  a sick loved one.  losing a parent.  losing a child.  hospital stays. divorces. missing children. infertility. sadness. despair.  and i realized something --- i am pretty darn lucky.  sure, what i am going through is big to me right now, but it is so small compared to the heartache, sadness, and frustration that other people are going through.  so i decided something right then and there.  first, i would pray.   so i prayed for those who were struggling, that they would find strength in the midst of their sadness.  i prayed for them to know what an inspiration their story is to me.  i prayed for those wonderful ears that listened to me vent my frustrations last night, that they would know what a strength they are to me. second, i would be the bigger person in this situation, hopefully gaining something from all of it.

today isn't really any different than yesterday.  the issue is still ever present.  the difference, i have realized, is me.  how i act and how i respond.  how i move forward.  its taking baby steps.  anytime i start to feel myself struggle, i remember the strength of those who are going through way worse.  i can surely get through this.

perspective...its a beautiful thing.